it really is... i also like cathartic tears... but sad tears, happy tears, tears without explanation... all tears are good
but that also makes sense for inspiration asldkjf
so yes TO THE PAIN, as they say in the princess bride
they were......... grumpy linefacing older sister shen qingqiu

Yeah, all this makes sense... and why the impact is so great, too, coming from his best friend slash not best friend and the whys of it all, and also, there's a reason he called!!! out the wrong name!!!
but yeah having to deal with that because in RP we also get situations where people more intensely push against each other so it all Makes Sense to me, and how the guilt that he gave himself (in some part, also being a survivor, because... for real) making him punish himself for what wasn't his fault so much more than those who can realise none of this was a knowing choice made by him at any point, he simply was himself and the situation was manipulated by others

i do.......... and no i really am.................. is this your bid to get a shi wudu in this situation aldjksf bring the pain on every level and have your brother (imagine shi wudu being also post death so like, soft cries) know the depths of his failure